Meeting God/dess Unexpectedly
Sometimes we have Encounters with the numinous and ineffable. In the woods. On the hills. Under the stars. We meet SomeOne bigger than we expected. We may have had an image in our mind of god/dess, known and sweetly familiar, but suddenly we encounter someone much larger, someone far more overwhelming than anything we thought we knew. SomeOne very different than anything we may have expected.
God/dess is essentially unknowable - too vast, too old, too simple/complex, too present for us to comprehend or relate to in ordinary consciousness. We have a direct connection through the mystical experience), which strikes - like lightning - where there is the least resistance. When we surrender far enough (and that is usually much further than we can surrender intentionally), we are touched by god/dess so deeply that we lose our sense of self and find Self instead. The experience of this connection fries our nervous system and brain cells if we stay in it too long, so we bounce back out pretty quickly.
Therefore, in order for us to directly connect with the divine (without turning into a little grease spot on the ground, a few ashes drifting around, and a spirit shrieking "Wheeeeeee!!!" as it expands out into the limitless unknown at translight speeds), Something happens/exists (call it a god or goddess or archetype or archangel or whatever) between human self and Infinite Being. That something is an aspect, one facet of that Infinite Being - a face that we as humans can relate to. It is a one that stretches us a few notches. That is, the face we've been dealing with did stretch us and now that we are more or less comfortable with it, we are introduced to an aspect of god/dess that stretches us further. 'Growth' seems to be the name of the game.
Perhaps, instead of alternate faces, we are seeing the face behind the face and then the one behind that ... and behind that a still greater face, too big to recognize as a face, even from a distance. I have often felt this to be true, because they meld into each other in a way. Layers, perhaps, to be found as we move into expanded consciousness and more real realities. But as we grow and become big enough, we begin to see through the face we know, looking beyond it to larger faces.
I saw a puppy meeting its first horse once. The horse was one of those big Clydesdales with hooves the size of platters. He found the back feet first and got all excited about them. All six inches of the pup wriggled and squirmed and leaped up against the horse's back legs, looking for the human he expected to be there to stoop down and pick him up.
Then he found the front legs. The dance was repeated, oh, what happiness - another two-legs to dispense caresses and tidbits!s
Then the horse bent down his head to get a closer look at this tiny, manic creature, and the pup went berserk. GODS!!! GIANTS!!! MONSTERS!!! O, JOY!!! O, HELP!!! Fall down, roll over. Expose tender, fat tummy while peeing on horse's foot.
The horse gave the pup a gentle, juicy lick, like a paternal slurp for a wobbly colt, rolling him over and over in the dirt. He came to his feet again, covered with mud and horse spit, and filled with totally overwhelming ecstasy.
The horse was very patient, very quiet, and didn't move his feet lest the pup get under them and get squished flat. I don't remember how long it took for the pup to realize that the back legs, the front legs and the head were all connected - all one being.
All one being. That's something to think about.
Perhaps, dear heart, you also need to know that this bigger god/dess gives larger (and different) lessons and initiations?
I keep getting caught in too many words
All of my images fail, are less than you,
The only thing I can do
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